Monday, July 8, 2013

summer.

It has been days of deepness and splendor, pain and thinking, quietness and thunderstorms, morning worship and spiritual encounters, boldness and nearness.
The sun is golden and the air warm. Nothing to stop us from being free birds, young and thirsty for life. 
The undeniable truth of Gods presence felt so deeply it takes my breath again and again.
The end of the semester has been surprisingly beautiful and filled with wonder and life. What is life? definitely not just sunshine and dancing. also tears and a empty feeling heart. longing and furfillment. it is a part. necessary. roots are growing deeper into the dry soil. now.






boots and letters. rainy weekend moments.



Then finally the summer returned and we lived it out to the fullest. 









Thursday, June 13, 2013

dreamy moments. full of joy.

This seems way too beautiful to be real. But this truly is how my last week looked like. Sun, warmth, beautiful friends, lots of photos, laughter and dreamy moments.
Here some snapshots.















Saturday, April 27, 2013

travels and homecoming.

I feel it´s time to share again..after longtimes what is moving me lately. it´s good to verbalize it. And if it blesses one person it´s all worth the while...
The past few months have been rich, vibrant, and full of adventures and learning more about life and finding my identity more and more.
I´ve been in Israel the past month and a half. It´sbeen a journey of wandering, sunshine, markets, surprizes,laughter,tears,awe, photos,encounters,prayer, talking hebrew, spontaneouse adventures, learning, growing and hummous.
For the first time i´ve been traveling by my self,couchsurfing and just staying at random peoples places, getting to know israeli life from the inside.
Here some of my favourite moments and what i´ve learnt from them:
Houseboat life at Jaffa port, steering a boat all by myself in the sea: i want a houseboat one day.
Tel-Avivrooftop party: psychological game „the room „and life music on rooftops are great.ohand goldstar is not a bad beer.
Pessach seder with a jewish family: it´s a looong story. Israels wine is good. I enjoy long conversations with a Rabi...and i should listen to more classical music.
Pessach seder with a messianic family: it´s a fun story, lively and full of laughter the hagada can be told. And i love when they sing, bless you Hydes !
Hot Springs: it felt good but i got sick the next day. Oh and Avi is a great busridig companion.
Working with holocoust survivers, cleaning an old ladys home and listening to her and sharing smiles.
Helping at the humanitarian aid for homeless and needy...meaningful encounters, using a little of arabicor hebrew wich blessed them alot i noticed.
Easter morning at the garden tomb...the reality of the story hit me deep and i felt loved.unworthy but loved nontheless.
Desert jeep trip: i love adventures and singing hebrew songs on the way. The dead sea doesn´t let you sink...the mud.it´s good. But hurts in the face! I like my desert companions.
Night hike through the Wadi and jumping into deep waters of an Oasis after the salty dead sea. Yes.
Jad vashem: it´s heavy. I whept. Had to rush through the last third of the exibition.
Shabbat evening at the Cotell. Praying, dancing and singing to the God of Israel.And afterward Shabbat ceremony at Rabi Mordechays house togehter with 50 others.Felt honoured and enriched. Shabbat nights are beautiful...warm night air, people walking on empty streets.
Living in a Kibbuz. Now i know what a planker is,...i think. Best host from couchsurfing ever.Guy!
Holocaus memorialday...more tears...the national anthem of Israel is sad,yet full of hope.
Sea of Galilee swimming and pilates at the beach. Mascha!!!
Shabbat with the Hydes. What a blessing. Love to sing with them and just listenand be carried away.
Hiking and night painting sessions with wonderful Debs. Taleted and wise, and heaps of fun.
Tel Aviv-Jaffa...great flea market! And Party on he roof. Yes.
Nazareth. What a beauty, peacefuland calm. Colorful and gentle. Steep hills and painted walls.dancing never felt to free.
TelAviv vegan-artists-hippie commune. Very alternative and such great laughts.
The memorial sirene going of while being at a beach near a street..when suddenly slilence..evryone on their feet.head bowed. I senced a heavy weight through all the heavy thoughts. It was as if time was standing still..the only movement and noice came from the constant rushing of the sea...everyone stood like pillars of salt. It was an eerie moment.but unforgettable.
Now.
He tought me who i am. A reminder, engraved in my skin. I can´t forget...i will not forget. I am His.












Finally i feel back home. My heart took a few days longer to arrive...my head too i think...now i am fully here, enjoying times with wonderful friends i love,taking pictures going to classes and listening to early spring birds, and watching the flowers unfold their beauty. Sharing laughther, stories,pain and life with a wonderful person i´m starting to let in...its all good. Life is bright for me right now and i love every bit of it. Thank you for all your love and support.




some black and white moments back in Germany. spring-sun. art-books. baby-sitting.


Saturday, February 16, 2013

new things.

As the winter is coming to an end, seasons are shifting and there is a sweet scent in the air.
I am silent. Drawn back from the so distant seeming world outside...thoughtful.
I was sorting out some artwork also old and new photos. Somehow this desire to be creative, share beauty and make something out of nothing...it is stirring up in me and it makes me restless. So little time. But i´m taking it anyways because it is what i´m made for. I am and always will be  an artist, no matter what i do. Why are we defined merely by what we do? Why is this always the first question when we meet someone new? There are some much more relevant things to ask. I am tired of that question and especially of being defined by it. What i am studying is a small part of my path yet there is so much more that moves me, makes me alive and stirres my heart.
Next year i might me doing something completely different, will a be another person? or just in another box for the people who prefer to think inside of them.
Mainthing is...i know that there is more to life, much more than what is visible at the moment. And everything is possible for the one who believes.

the photos have been taken with my new(very old) canon film camera. unedited. just like that.