Monday, June 2, 2014

Consciousness.

We are capable of so much more.

My eyes have been opened, the walls guarding my heart finally fell down. Walls of fear, shame and pride. Nothing left but the burden of my fragile self. Is it a burden or just the unfamiliar sense of relief?  


awake. love. think. speak.

trueness.


I´m daring to ask, to go beyond, to reach out.
These past few weeks have been some of the most moving, challenging and purifying week of my life so far. Through the ups and downs there is not one moment i would want to miss.
I feel so deeply in touch with my true self and i´m growing confident in who i am - completely apart from what i do.
I have often wondered why, when getting to know someone new, people always want to know what they do. Sure i get the point that it reflects you to some degree when you tell them what you do, student, doctor, artist...but is it really the first thing you want to know? Have you ever played the mind game where you watch strangers and try to imagine what they do for life? It amazes me every time how different a person seems to me when i put him in a different box.
But i am asking why is there even a box? 
i get tired of explaining to people what i study and when i finally manage to get through that they want to know that i will do with it later on! Is that all there is to wonder, question, think about?
Who am i when there is no box. Who is the doctor when he´s at home, the artist without the paint, the business man without his suit and laptop? Who are we? Are we afraid to face the truth of our existence? It´s easier to run about distracting ourselves from the cry inside, meaningless substitutes filling our time, mind, life.


Today i choose to let go.