in the warmest.

To celebrate our engagement i will share one of my all-time favorite quotes from one of my all-time favorite books. it pretty much sums up the genuine, deep, true love Sascha and i are blessed to share.

I choose him. And i am so happy to spend a lifetime with my best friend and lover.

“ I will give you this, my love, and I will not bargain or barter any longer. I will love you, as sure as He has loved me. I will discover what I can discover and though you remain a mystery, save God's own knowledge, what I disclose of you I will keep in the warmest chamber of my heart, the very chamber where God has stowed Himself in me. And I will do this to my death, and to death it may bring me.

I will love you like God, because of God, mighted by the power of God. I will stop expecting your love, demanding you love, trading for your love, gaming for your love. I will simply love. I am giving myself to you, and tomorrow I will do it again. I suppose the clock itself will wear thin its time before I am ended at this altar of dying and dying again.

God risked Himself on me. I will risk myself on you. And together, we will learn to love, and perhaps then, and only then, understand this gravity that drew Him, unto us.” 

― Donald Miller, Blue Like Jazz: Nonreligious Thoughts on Christian Spirituality

Peter Wever

Consciousness.

We are capable of so much more.

My eyes have been opened, the walls guarding my heart finally fell down. Walls of fear, shame and pride. Nothing left but the burden of my fragile self. Is it a burden or just the unfamiliar sense of relief?  

awake. love. think. speak.

trueness.

I´m daring to ask, to go beyond, to reach out.

These past few weeks have been some of the most moving, challenging and purifying week of my life so far. Through the ups and downs there is not one moment i would want to miss.

I feel so deeply in touch with my true self and i´m growing confident in who i am - completely apart from what i do.

I have often wondered why, when getting to know someone new, people always want to know what they do. Sure i get the point that it reflects you to some degree when you tell them what you do, student, doctor, artist...but is it really the first thing you want to know? Have you ever played the mind game where you watch strangers and try to imagine what they do for life? It amazes me every time how different a person seems to me when i put him in a different box.

But i am asking why is there even a box? 

i get tired of explaining to people what i study and when i finally manage to get through that they want to know that i will do with it later on! Is that all there is to wonder, question, think about?

Who am i when there is no box. Who is the doctor when he´s at home, the artist without the paint, the business man without his suit and laptop? Who are we? Are we afraid to face the truth of our existence? It´s easier to run about distracting ourselves from the cry inside, meaningless substitutes filling our time, mind, life.

Today i choose to let go.

sense of wonder.

so much time has past.

so much has happened.

so many places, people, adventures.

these are some of my favourite moments of these past few months captured with my beloved Diana F+

in Halle and San Francisco. how random.

one thing i realized wandering (literally) up and down the streets of San Francisco

changed my view on home, travels and peace probably for ever.

i was always an adventurer never enough traveling, seeking, finding, chasing the wind and looking for more to life. i realized that no matter how amazing the place i find myself in is, it means nothing if i can´t share it with loved ones...

home means so much more to me now.

everything.

oh to travel with my beloved.

happiness is only real when shared

with my adventurous, joy,-wonder- and beautiful friends Josephine von Blütenstaub and Eva.

In a dream.

breathe.deep.simple.

the ache.the longing.

nothing.

sometimes i dream.these pictures cause a tingle in my stomach as if evoking a memory long lost. 

i believe its a dream. or multiple dreams.

Although these moments and the way they appear so dreamy and unreal, 

my heart is full.

lomolife.

I think what i love about lomography is that it somehow expresses a deep longing, sensation, indescribable moments, the world behind the obvious. 

these images have been taken with a sipmle diana f+ and bw film 200

locations Halle

and Stuttgart